Dare to Dream

2010-08-02T10:53:00.000+08:00

There is a candle in ur heart ready 2 b kindled. There is a void in ur soul ready 2 b filled.

U feel it, don't u? - RUMI

Losing myself to the rat race...

2010-08-02T00:56:00.002+08:00

My Lord, I have wasted my life committing the crime of forgetting You and played havoc with my youth, intoxicated with keeping myself away from You. I request You to forgive me because forgiveness is a characteristic of Your Kindness.

My Lord, I am Your powerless sinning slave and Your repentant bondman. So do not make me one of those from whom You turn away Your face, and whom his negligence has secluded from Your forgiveness.

Excerpts from the Invocation of Shabaniyah

2010-08-02T00:24:00.002+08:00

In the name of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful

My Lord, bestow Your blessings on Muhammad and his descendants; respond to my prayer when I pray to You; listen to my call when I call You; and turn to me when I make my submission to You in confidence. I have come running to You and am standing before You imploring You in humility and hoping to get the reward You have for me. You know what is in my heart, and You are aware of what I need. You know my mind and are not unaware of my future and of my present, of what I want to begin my speech with; of the request I would utter, and of the hopes I have in regard to my ultimate lot.

My Lord, whatever You have destined for me up to tbe end of my life, whether concerning the open aspect of my life or the hidden aspect of it, is bound to come. What is to my advantage and what is to my disadvantage - all my losses and gains are in Your hand, not in the hand of anybody else.

My Lord, if You deprive me, who else will provide me; and if You let me down, who else will help me?

Random

2010-07-29T01:00:00.003+08:00

"The reason why I like FIX YOU is because it's not poetic. It's just completely naked."
- Chris Martin

"It's never easy to hear criticism but it's always helpful and useful in the end."
- Chris Martin

2010-05-09T10:06:00.002+08:00

Today my mum celebrated Mother's Day at Blk N, Lim Chu Kang Muslim Cemetery....

With the demise of my beloved grandmother last Thursday afternoon at NUH, it ended a chapter in her life but opened my view to many new things. Personally, it was a painful loss as I grew up spending much of my childhood with my late grandmother. It was even more painful to see my grandfather lost his friend, companion and confidant of 47 years. That day, he was a broken man and to see that, only broke my heart.

I was there to witness the janazah rites of my late grandmother and did what little I could as we prepared her for her final rest. It was an emotional experience. When I was young, my late grandmother used to dress me up and now it was my turn to help shroud her tiny, lifeless body.

Death is painful but it served a bigger purpose in life. As long as there is birth without death, humans will not learn the important lesson of loving and appreciating what we have been blessed with. With death, comes that feeling of emptiness and loneliness and to counter that, we will offer prayers, visit graves or look at old photographs to capture past memories with the dead. While doing so, we will rekindle with the past, maybe even view it differently than before and learn to treasure the moments shared. This is an important lesson in human relations. We have to be constantly reminded to thank God for His blessings.

Something Inspiring...

2010-04-03T13:36:00.003+08:00

"I didn't have any money and I didn't have any job offers and I was really scared and I was depressed. But I do believe that's when you do your soul-searching. I think when you have these trials that life gives you, it is an opportunity to find out who you are. Not just who you are when everything's great but who you are when everything's taken away from you and you have nothing."

"One of the things that I learnt as I got older is that it's not about everybody approving of what I say. It's about if I believe in it and if I'm being truly honest. I don't want to be hurtful but I want to be honest."

"I knew for sure that I would never change any of the hard times that I went through in my life. Because it was in those times that I grew the most and gained the most perspective."

- Ellen DeGeneres

2010-03-31T00:31:00.003+08:00

This afternoon I had a difficult conversation about the future of my grandmother. I was discussing with the social worker about her condition and why we needed to relieve my grandfather from shouldering the responsibility of caring for my grandmother. He is in his 70s and at that age, caring for a very sick person becomes harder, even harder when there's only 2 of them left at home. He had no one to confide in, no one to share his sorrow with and as usual, I could only listened as he poured his hearts out to me. He was tired and he was worried about my grandmother and her health condition. Her frequent trips to the hospital forced him to quit his job. He can't even go for his Friday prayers because my grandmother needs care 24/7. Life is difficult for him and I could see it on his face that he's dying for some air to breathe.

With my grandmother in the hospital, he had difficulty sleeping, sometimes hearing her voice in the middle of the night when actually, she's away. When my grandmother's at home, his sleep was frequently disrupted with her calling out to him asking for things that when she wasn't at home, he felt incomplete.

Today, he told me that he loves my grandmother despite her sickness, despite her looking so plain and dull, despite her not smelling nice. This is TRUE LOVE and I was touched that I could almost tear. I guess it's just a matter of time before a new routine presents itself before him. In the meantime, I shall just wait for the social worker.

Woman

2010-02-24T11:52:00.002+08:00

The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul
It is the caring that she lovingly gives
The passion that she shows
And the beauty of a woman with passing years... only grows
- Audrey Hepburn

'The One'

2010-02-21T23:13:00.003+08:00

The Jakarta that I visited was a busy, bustling city booming with people and vehicles. I slept a lot when I was there. I slept in the van as we moved from one location to another only to wake up when we near our destination. One night, I slept as everyone sat in my room chatting away and I only woke up to have my late night hot shower (which I loved). My tired body was telling me it was deprived of sleep and I was just giving in to my body's needs. Some well deserved rest.

I also read a lot in Jakarta. The bookworm in me unleashed itself and soaked in Elizabeth Gilbert's latest book, 'Committed'. I read in the mall, at the coffee joint, in the airport, in the plane, in my room when I couldn't sleep. Which brought me to some interesting discoveries as I asked my travelling companions on how they decided on 'The One'. Yes 'The One' whom you eventually choose to get married to and have kids. Coz you see, Farah had been telling me about 'The One' but this is one philosophy/phrase (whatever you call it) I cannot possibly comprehend (despite my old age. shucks!). And I got some interesting answers.

Abg Mok - 'The One' for me is someone whom I can envision as the mother of my children.

Wan - 'The One' for me is someone charismatic.

Kak S - 'The One' for me is someone who loves me more than I love him.

Keya - 'The One' for me is someone whom my mum gave her blessings to.

A variety of answers which explains that 'The One' brings about different meanings to different people. Honestly, I've never thought about 'The One'. The furthest I'd went was to think of someone I like as my lover. No thoughts of him as my husband and definitely not 'The One'. Could 'The One' for me be the guy who gives me that nice, warm fuzzy feeling in my tummy everytime I see him or could 'The One' for me be the dude whom I keep going to in times of need? I have no idea but like Miss Farah Goh said, you will know when you meet 'The One'.

Family

2010-02-20T22:50:00.002+08:00

I returned from Jakarta on Thursday night... broke but happy. How contradicting but that's the reality.

As I stepped into the arrival hall, family members greeted me. Not mine but my friend's. All of them had their family members welcoming their return, embracing in hugs and hand shakes, something I'm not accustomed to.

When I first returned from Iran in 2007, I was greeted by a similar reception. Friends had their family members waiting for their return while I didn't have mine. I was ready to dash to the nearest coffee joint to buy myself a cuppa before making my way to the taxi stand when people stopped me. A friend commented that they felt the need to come to me as I had nobody to welcome me home and I looked pitiful. My jaw almost dropped. Maybe because we're both accustomed to a different lifestyle. My parents have never fetched me from the airport (except in Dec 2008) and I honestly do not see the need for it. However, when I see my friends surrounded by their family members, sometimes I do long for mine to be there as well. But I'm not complaining because each family express their love and affection in their own unique way. And I love mine very much despite the fact that we are just uniquely different from the rest.

What I learnt today...

2010-01-24T21:11:00.001+08:00

In me, there is fear of Allah, Lord of the Universe

Time to think about myself

2010-01-19T00:51:00.002+08:00

Most of my life, I spent thinking about my career and community work. It's always been what will be best for the viewers or for the client or what would be best for the congregation. It has never been what will be best for me or what I want in life because as soon as I've charted my career path, it seems that there is nothing left for me to achieve as things are all nicely placed.

Until lately...

Yes lately it dawned upon me that I had done great injustice by not asking what I want for myself. I will turn 30 in a couple of months and I have stopped thinking about myself for so long that I couldn't even recall what my needs are anymore. I need to pluck up enough courage to recognize my needs and start addressing them.

In the meantime, I will have to start relinquishing some duties that are less pertinent so that valuable time can be devoted to myself and my needs. But before I can even do that, I need to know what I want and hopefully, God will lead me to some answers.

Christmas Party 2009

2010-01-04T11:28:00.005+08:00

Picture taking while waiting to eat briyani Kassim :-)

Oh how sweet....

2009-12-11T18:39:00.003+08:00

Special thanks to Haiz, Farah, Wati & Ezra.

I feel so loved :-)

My make up artist friend

2009-12-09T16:33:00.002+08:00

My Friends

2009-12-09T16:16:00.002+08:00

My LOVE

2009-12-09T16:13:00.000+08:00

What a bummer!

2009-12-06T21:41:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I can't help but think that I'm the only one working while the rest are sleeping. No wonder I have no life...

Good friends are hard to come by

2009-12-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

I knew I was not going to enjoy the trip but I came back with something more. I met 2 beautiful friends and we shared so much in common. We are separated by the causeway but we will definitely keep in touch. Its been a beautiful experience and I have to thank Allah swt for this.

2009-12-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful

And when My Servants question thee concerning Me, then surely I am nigh. I answer the prayer of the supplicant when he crieth unto Me. So let them hear My call and let them trust in Me, in order that they may be led alright.

Happy

2009-11-23T22:36:00.001+08:00

Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Coz I'm just trying to be happy

Love for the Holy Prophet

2009-10-18T00:34:00.003+08:00

And I kept telling myself that I'm still trying to be a better Muslim...

'Everything has a foundation and the foundation of Islam is love for us the Ahlul Bayt'
- Prophet Muhammad (pbuh)

Talentime

2009-10-14T19:37:00.001+08:00

Talentime – Director’s statement (21 February 2009)

While writing a script, I try not to think about where the story is going. I don’t even want to know how it will end. Instead, I embark upon a journey half in darkness into my memories, and the honest, forgotten feelings that I have about them. In other words, I wait for spontaneous form to appear.

While writing “Talentime”, I pieced together bits of memory from various parts of my school life. The singing contests and the stage dramas that I participated in, the friendships that were struck along the way, and the romantic adventures that surrounded them. But what began as a simple high school musical slowly became something much bigger. After watching the first off-line edit of the film, we all sat back, staring at each other in silence. Some of us were crying. Our little film had turned out to be a sharp critical reflection of the current state of our mutli-racial, multi-cultural country.

“Talentime” had become a heartfelt plea for harmony, in a country where the different races are gradually drifting apart.

Eid Mubarak

2009-09-25T12:12:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya from Yati, Cumi & Cheeky ;-)

2009-08-22T13:30:00.001+08:00

In this blessed month of Ramadhan, may Allah swt be with the oppressed.

Hhmm...

2009-07-30T15:16:00.000+08:00

"We know the least about those we love the most"
- Chinese proverb

Being a Youth

2009-05-26T22:36:00.001+08:00

"There is nothing more beloved to God than a youth who turns to him"
- Prophet Muhammad (saw)

Value of a Man

2009-05-03T00:41:00.002+08:00

"The value of a man resides in what he gives and not in what he is capable of receiving."
- Albert Einstein

God will not lead us to a place where His grace cannot keep us

2009-04-25T00:44:00.006+08:00

I was just sharing with Erin about my Iraqi tour guide who is this big, tall bespectacled guy who speaks very little English and communicated with me using hand gestures and sign languages.

And she said that it's nice that no matter what language or nationality, we can all still understand basic human courtesy and hospitality and get along well without having to bomb each other.

I guess it's true when she said that God will not lead us to a place where His grace cannot keep us.

I've Learnt...

2009-04-22T22:55:00.001+08:00

I've learnt that sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and I'm touched that they remembered.

A Hindu Proverb

2009-04-05T17:22:00.001+08:00

"They who give have all things. They who withhold have nothing."
- Hindu Proverb

Dua Ghaibat

2009-03-04T23:41:00.002+08:00

A friend shared this beautiful supplication with me...

O Allah, Introduce Your self to me
For, If You Do Not Introduce Your self to me, I will not recognize Your Prophet (saw)
O Allah, Make Me Recognize Your Prophet (saw)
Because If I Do Not Recognize Your Prophet, I will not recognize Your Proof (Imams a.s)
For, If You Do Not Make Me Recognize Your Proof, I will deviate from my religion

What a way to begin the new year...

2009-01-04T11:13:00.002+08:00

It is with great misfortune that we begin the new year at a time when the world is witnessing a huge humanitarian catastrophe in Gaza which has led to the death and injury of many innocent children and women.

Our prayers and condolences to the innocent victims in Palestine.

If I have one more day...

2008-11-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

If I have one more day on this earth, what will I do...?

I just want to do the simple things that matter to me and the ones I love and to make peace with the ones I've hurt but most importantly, I need to reconcile with myself, pat myself on the back because inevitably, I know I've done my best for my family, work and community.

Oh and if I have one more day on this earth, I will need to have prata coupled with hot teh tarik mamak with Erin as I've stood her up TWICE! Yes, thanks to all the drama that occurred in the office, I had to push our dinner appointment yet again.

So, what will you do if you have only one more day on this earth...?

And OBAMA won...

2008-11-08T14:47:00.002+08:00

His win gave a glimmer of hope to the lives of those who thought that the impossible was really impossible.

By becoming the first African American President of the United States, he injected hope and strengthened the never-say-die belief and attitude into the lives of millions or even billions.

So, as the world now watch in anticipation, how a man who promised CHANGE will deliver the much needed CHANGE to his country, you and I should continue to take that first step towards realising our dreams because the world is certainly ready for it to come true.

With Pals & Siblings...

2008-11-08T14:07:00.008+08:00

Dreams can still come true...

2008-10-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

The years will never take away
Our chance to start anew
It's only the beginning now
So Dreams can still come true.
~ Gertrude B. McClain ~

2008-09-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

"I have always held the religion of Muhammad in high estimation because of its wonderful vitality. It is the only religion that appears to me to possess that assimilating capability to the changing phase of existence, which can make itself appeal to every age. I have prophesied about the faith of Muhammad that it would be acceptable to the Europe of tomorrow and the signs of this are becoming apparent even now. The medieval ecclesiastics, either through ignorance or bigotry, painted Muhammadanism in the darkest colours. They were in fact, trained to hate the man, Muhammad and his religion. To them, Muhammad was anti-Christ. I have studied him, the wonderful man and in my opinion, far from being anti-Christ. He must be called the Savior of Humanity. I believe that if a man like him were to assume the leadership of the modern world, he would succeed in solving its problems in a way that would bring it the much needed peace and happiness".
- Bernard Shaw, a liberal-minded English writer

My secret hideout in Ramadan

2008-09-06T00:01:00.003+08:00

I had a brief chat with Natra who's now away in Doha and the chat triggered moments of yesteryears where we spent Ramadan at our "secret hideout".

The secret hideout is still where it is except that I have not gone there after Nat's departure. Perhaps, it's best left alone as that place was etched with memories of Nat, Sani and I during Ramadan.

My Healing Process

2008-08-12T16:17:00.003+08:00

I couldn't focus on work today and had to visit the doctor after my lunch break.
He gave me oral medication and some cream and requested that I come again in 10 days' time for a review. I left the clinic feeling so relieved and told myself that I need to get a grip on myself and heal.

I need to thank Wati for accompanying me to the doctor and making oursleves looked like small kids playing with the weighing machine at the clinic ;-)

Today, I discovered that we all had something in common. Thanks to the hot weather, dustmites and emotional stress dawned upon us.

Words to live by

2008-08-09T20:14:00.002+08:00

"I do not shrink from that responsibility, I welcome it."
- John F. Kennedy

And I'm still battling with eczema.

p.s/HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

Trip to the zoo on 14/6/08

2008-06-18T13:08:00.005+08:00

Trying to mitigate the fear in me…

2008-06-11T02:04:00.001+08:00

I suddenly woke up to the tunes of Rihanna’s ‘Take A Bow’ playing in my ears and I couldn’t sleep ever since. The time was 2 a.m in the morning and I hope I’m not going to live through another series of anxiety attack. It was such an ugly feeling with thoughts of death constantly lingering in my mind.

At my most vulnerable moment, I had no one to turn to but GOD. For strength and courage to go through this crazy wave.

I am just so scared to death and I hope God will help me live through and come out of this battle a winner.

2008-05-23T13:47:00.000+08:00

"In this world there are only two tragedies. One is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it." - Oscar Wilde

Fun In The Snow In Iran

2008-04-08T17:23:00.004+08:00

Job Perks...

2008-04-08T16:56:00.001+08:00

Learning...

2008-04-06T23:05:00.001+08:00

I'm learning to be a "Yes-Sir" person and yet not lose my dignity

Sayings of a great leader

2008-03-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

"Former nations and communities declined and ceased to exist because they discriminated in the enforcement of the Divine law. If an influential person committed a crime, he was let off and no action was taken against him, but if an unimportant and weak person committed it, he was punished. I swear by Allah in whose hands my life is that I will be ruthless in the enforcement of justice even if the culprit be one of my own relatives"
-- Prophet Muhammad PBUH

That night the moon witnessed our friendship

2008-01-31T11:39:00.000+08:00

We opened our lives, exposing scab wounds without a care in the world if

we'll ever be judged. Gone are the impressions of a perfect, happy life.

They learnt about my troubled uncle while I was introduced to their

torn laced life journey.

This is our life story and these are my friends.

Ceritera Cinta

2008-01-29T18:27:00.000+08:00

Bertanya sang bayu padaku
Mengapa kau masih di situ
Tidakkah jemu kau
Menunggu...?

They may be rascals at times but when I was away, I missed them...

2008-01-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

This was what greeted me after my long absence from the office...

2008-01-04T17:17:00.000+08:00

My life at a glance

2008-01-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

2007
Mataharies, Phuket, Sabah, eczema, chicken pox, scarred face and body, a bout of fever & diarrhea, soul-searching, Iqra classes, Iran, fun in the snow, friends' weddings, new friends, work, sleepless nights...

I had an amazing and fulfilling 2007 and despite the setbacks, I will not change anything about it.

"It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ours..."

Kara-okay moments ; )

2007-11-15T12:42:00.000+08:00

Special thanks to Farah for the artwork which
she did during office hours...

One Happy Family

2007-10-05T16:31:00.000+08:00

Lanyard CRAZY

2007-09-14T12:59:00.000+08:00

Penghijrahan

2007-08-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

What should one do when one feels that life is empty? What should one do when one feels that there is so much to life than its mundane routine of work-social life-family and ultimately death?

PENGHIJRAHAN...

I was out on National Day when a friend suddenly whipped a new phrase to me -- Penghijrahan and spoke to me about her gradual change towards being a better Muslim.

Initially, I was baffled by her and hoped that it was not some late April Fools joke. But after a while, I was able to comprehend and digest her thoughts. It was deep but it came at the right time. I was of course, very happy for her and I was happier when she informed me that she is interested to join me in my weekly Iqra reading class!

The next day, I looked up toward the sky and the sun was smiling at me. My sun kissed cheeks blushed with happiness when again, I thought about this friend of mine. Never in my wildest dream would I thought she'll say the things she said to me but I was glad and happy for her. Happy to see her move on in her life and to see her be a complete person... finally.

Leadership begins with loneliness

2007-08-10T11:45:00.000+08:00

What is leadership, what does a leader do?

A leader is simply one who goes ahead, one who sets the pace, paves the way. I think it needs to be said too, that any company, church, community or agency must have at least one courageous person who is willing, I said willing, not able. There are many who are not willing, and others who could do the job better, IF THEY WOULD. Many never arrive simply because they really never get started. Once you decide to set the pace and move ahead, you discover why many refuse to pay the price of leadership.

Its lonely leading and so many return to the pack to lead with the gang, only to discover too late that the gang isn't going anywhere. They want to make sure of the end before going off into the terrible unknown where it is LONELY. Another phrase we often hear, "I won't go ahead until I know I’m right." Seems strange how slowly we realize how many times the very things that appeared so wrong, turned out so right, and the things that appeared so right, turned out so wrong. I've come to the conclusion that we won't know for sure what is the right or wrong until the end, and the end is a long way off. The aloneness of the leader is far better than the loneliness of the follower.

Diagnosed with eczema

2007-07-17T11:28:00.000+08:00

I just came back from the doctor with Zalinah and he confirmed with me that it is ECZEMA.

He gave me pills and ointment to stop the itchiness and if it does not get better in 2 weeks, I'II have to visit him again. I just hope that the medication will at least heal the dry skin which is now starting to peel and bleed, exposing some raw skin which itch like crazy.

Seriously, life cannot be more depressed than this. I cannot sleep at night. I cannot scratch myself. I have no appetite to eat.

For now, it's back to work in the office...

Eczema anyone?

2007-07-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

I'm so stressed up because...
For whatever reason, my body is reacting to god knows what....
It is covered in little spots and a huge black, scaly spot the size of two palms put together and I am itching away...

Damn it!

I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow because it may be a case of eczema.

Damn it!

Live Earth

2007-07-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

"The Live Earth concert taking place across the planet highlight two inconvenient truths. First is the ineluctable fact of climate change. The second is our apparent inability to understand a point unless a celebrity is making it, usually fairly badly".

-- Marina Hyde in The Guardian

2007-07-09T18:06:00.001+08:00

Check out the latest girl band in town -- the GIGI girls!
UGLY IS THE NEW BEAUTIFUL

Happy Hour in the office

2007-07-05T18:01:00.000+08:00

In the quiet lunch hour, at around 1.10pm in
the afternoon, 4 friends were spotted enjoying
their lunch. It was believed that one of them,
a guy brought home cooked lunch to be shared
among his friends. Upon further probing, it was
discovered that the most unpopular artist
manager, Alex has a talent in cooking.

It was believed that Alex has other ambitions
should his current career not take off. His other
options include being a chef or opening up his
own restaurant.

It seems that he is facing stiff competition from
the latest kid in the block, Ya-ti, with 2 of the world's
most amazing talents, Ez-ra & Nat-ra.

For now, let's just see if the serene picture of the
4 good friends is here to stay.

Like the saying goes, "Let the best man win".

Report by Yati
Photo courtesy of Miss Farah Goh

Happy Hour

2007-07-05T17:28:00.000+08:00

Alex the DIVA kidnapped Didi, Farah and myself for dinner last week.

Even though it was a BUDGET dinner, we had a blast!

The night was filled with life stories from yours truly Mr Alex and Sani

who shared with us their stories as national servicemen.

Nat, too bad you couldn't join us.

Oh, did I tell you that the girls night out turned out to be the boys night out

because firstly, other boys joined us too and secondly, the night was filled

with stories about NS!

Love - Love Story

2007-06-15T10:19:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings live: Happiness, Sadness, Love etc. One day it was announced to Feelings that the island would sink so all repaired their boats and left.

When the island was almost sinking, Love asked for help. Richness was passing by in a grand boat when Love asked for help. Richness refused saying that there was Envy and Jealousy in the boat and there was no place for Love.

Vanity passed by in a beautiful vessel and once again, Love asked for help.
"I can't help you Love. You are wet and you may damage my boat," exclaimed Vanity.

As Sadness closed by, love turned to him. But Sadness was too sad and he wanted to be by himself.

Suddenly, there was a voice.
"Come Love, I will take you."

Love felt so relieved that he even forgot to ask his name. Finally they arrived on dry land and parted ways.

Love asked Knowledge who it was.
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.

"But why did Time helped me?" Love asked.

Knowledge smiled and answered, "Because, only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

Are we fighting the same battle?

2007-06-13T18:01:00.000+08:00

Excerpts from Alfian Saat’s ‘Homesick’

Patricia: I thought you liked living overseas.

Patrick: I do, Ma. But I think each time someone says goodbye it’s a way of saying ‘yes’. Yes, you win. Yes, I give up. Yes, you’re right, I can’t change anything. I want to have that privilege to say ‘no’. And I can only say ‘no’ if I stick around. Does that make sense?

Patricia: Are you coming with me, Patrick? Yes or no?

Patrick: No, Ma.

Patricia: If you wish, Patrick.

Happy Feet Moments

2007-06-01T16:03:00.000+08:00

The Road Less Travelled to Kota Kinabalu

2007-05-11T15:56:00.000+08:00

In order to save some money, we both decided
to take a flight from Senai airport instead.

To go to Senai airport, we took a lounge bus from
Kotaraya

That was our flight

This was where Zulina and I stayed from
26th to 29th April -- Beringgis Beach Resort
in Kota Kinabalu

This beach was just behind the resort

A warning sign by the beach

My birthday gift from the resort staff

The river cruise started from here. It costed

RM$205 per person and dinner was provided.

We took a 2 hour car ride to go to Kampong

Garama where light refreshments were served

before we embarked on the river cruise. The cruise

was about 2 hours long and if the weather was good,

we could even see fireflies. But luck was not on

our side as it rained minutes after we boarded

the boat.

What we saw from the boat

Silhouette of a lonely proboscis monkey

More proboscis monkeys

A pack of proboscis monkeys

It started to rain along the way and it became

very cold that I had to put on the raincoat

In the rain, a herd of water buffaloes decided

to cross the river.

Dinner after the river cruise

We love the food!!!

On board the navy boat. This ride only costed

us RM$1 per person

My sunset

One day after my Kota Kinabalu trip, I was

back to work. But blame it on luck but on that

night, I was shivering with fever that my dad

had to send me to the nearest hospital in which

I got a jab and a possible dengue fever infection.

But thank god that it's not dengue fever after all.

Or else...

p.s./ Syat and Erin, the above pictures are for your

kind viewing...

The Road Less Travelled with Zulina

2007-05-11T15:21:00.000+08:00

My idea of travelling is to experience a different culture, custom and to meet new people.

I did all of that and a lot more while in Kota Kinabalu. The warm hospitality of the resort staff. The once in a lifetime experience to go on a river cruise to see the proboscis monkeys in their natural habitat in the midst of the rain. To see a herd of water buffaloes crossing the river about 1 metre from you. To have Jeffrey, our friendly guide who also volunteered as our cameraman. The cute boatman at Kampung Garama. The 20 to 30 minutes cruise on board the navy boat. The sunset. The loud and long knock on the neighbour's door at 3.46am which woke Zulina and I. We were both too spooked after that, we ended up watching HBO, only to go back to sleep after Subuh. The only thing I wished we had done was the island hopping trip and a chance to snorkel again. But it's okay. Maybe next time.

More Birthday Surprise!

2007-05-11T14:51:00.000+08:00

After the whole "selenge" episode in the office, I met
Zulina to accompany her to get her ear piece. After that,
this was what greeted me when we reached Plaza Singapura
-- a birthday balloon, a huge white paperbag and
ice-cream!!!

Birthday cakes are so over rated so I'm
happy to get a birthday ice-cream instead

This was really sweet. Thanks Fariz for helping
Irna with it.

More birthday gifts!

Picture of the gang

To the lovely girls, Irna, Zulina, Netty, Fini,

Wawa and Kak Lin, THANK YOU so much

from the bottom of my heart. Even though Zulina

unknowingly gave me many signs that a surprise

dinner was coming up, it was still sweet.

After the birthday surprise, it's time to leave for home

and start packing for my Kota Konabalu trip!

Diana and I

2007-04-25T17:40:00.000+08:00

Believe it or not but we're both the same age

That's the present which I thought was Diana's

But the present's mine! So here I am posing
with my shawl!

Diana's expression when we surprised her with
lunch. She looked so dazed!

The surprise that surprised me!

2007-04-25T17:11:00.000+08:00

Today's lunch was a planned surprise for Diana who treated us during her birthday on March 28th. Almost a month later, I was spooked by the fact that we did not buy Diana anything for her birthday! Feeling of guilt kicked in! We had to give her something and Didi and I chanced upon the opportunity to surprise her with LUNCH today at SCREEN ROOM!

So while happily dining with the rest, Marinah and Didi stepped into the room, carrying a paper bag and sang the birthday song. Thinking that it was a belated gift for Diana, I joined them and happily sang away. The shock came when Didi told me that the gift was for me and I was like, "Eh, eh for me?! I thought it's Diana's!" So that was my selenge episode for the day.

They bought me a beautiful flowery shawl which Alex said I can also use to make a tudung that looks like Erica Badu's headgear. I think I'II need a personal stylist to do that for me. Anyway, another surprise greeted me slightly later when Miss Yatie Wahab dropped by the office to give me Marks and Spencers voucher. And best thing of all, it's not even my birthday yet!

To Didi, Farah, Diana, Marinah, Elly, Alex, Sani and Ezra, thank you for the gift! I love it!
To Miss Yatie, you're the distant friend who's always there and I thank you for that.

The grass is always greener on the other side

2007-04-20T17:50:00.000+08:00

I spoke to Mar and told her how envious I was of her job
She’s complaining of fatigue while I yearn to travel.
She complains of the long Film and TV markets while I long to travel and meet the other “creative” people.

Then… a thought came to mind

I was at Mar’s place when she was leaving for Cannes last year and I witnessed the madness!
Madness of packing her bag for the 1 week trip and her mum busy ensuring that Mar knew how to use the cooking pot while in Cannes.
Madness of ensuring that all the program catalogues are properly packed, that all the screeners are in and crossing her fingers that the luggage will not go missing in Cannes airport!

And… that was enough for me

I guess the others are right when they said, “The grass is always greener on the other side”

ps/ Mar, but deep in my heart, I still want your job ; )

When friends meet, hearts warm

2007-04-14T02:54:00.000+08:00

The Bottom Line
Don't be self-conscious about sharing your problems with your friends today.

In Detail (What the horoscope says)
Your friends want to help you! So don't worry about sharing your problems with them today. And don't assume that you know how they'll react, because you don't. You know these people very well, but they are still capable of surprising you from time to time. Their compassion will make you feel loved and cared for, just as your compassion makes them feel loved and cared for. What you put out into the universe is coming back to you.

In Reality (What I've been up to)
No major problems in life YET but it's been a whole week of catching up with the people that matters! The first one was with my mataharies followed by my SIM kakis and I just reached home about 30 minutes ago from a catching up session with the lovely people in the office and right now, I am chatting with Farah & Alex on MSN! I guess the dinner at KTM just wasn't enough!

To Daphne, thanks for giving us a treat and I certainly hope that you will join us for more catching up sessions with the rest of the gila bunch. Miss Steph Yeow, you looked great the other day and I was just joking about you gaining weight. Anu dear, we have a lunch date this Monday so hope to see you at the "Meeting Point".

Let me end this entry with a random quote from Mr Alex...
"Aku selalu kacau Didi. Sekarang aku pun sama!"
("I'm always distrubing Didi but now I'm just like her!")

Moral of the story?

You go figure.

The picture I forgot about

2007-03-22T14:03:00.000+08:00

I came across this picture when I was looking through Natra's pictures in friendster and decided to make a quick check with Miss Gorgeous herself.

So the picture on the left was taken after midnight as the 3 of us together with Miss Lovely Wani and Kak Fid went back to the office because our dear Alex had to do something urgently! Miss Gorgeous was not supposed to come up but I guessed she missed the office so much that she decided to drop by. So there we were. Picture of the 3 of us snapped by Miss Lovely Wani. It was one of those quick pose and snap kind of photos because the camera was running out of battery. Sweet and lovely.

More of Phuket's beauty

2007-03-22T10:20:00.000+08:00

One hell of a script

2007-03-21T15:20:00.000+08:00

Scent of a Woman
Written by Bo Goldman, from screenplay by Ruggero Maccari & Dino Risi, from novel by Giovanni Arpino

Trask: Mr. Sims, you are a cover-up artist and you are a liar.
Slade: But not a snitch!
Trask: Excuse me?
Slade: No, I don't think I will. This is such a crock of shit.
Trask: Mr. Slade, you will watch your language. You are at the Baird School now, not a barracks. Mr. Sims, I will give you one final opportunity to speak up.
Slade: Mr. Sims doesn't want it. He doesn't need to labeled, "...still worthy of being a 'Baird Man.'" What the hell is that? What is your motto here? "Boys, inform on your classmates, save your hide. Anything short of that we're gonna burn you at the stake?" Well, gentlemen. When the shit hits the fan, some guys run and some guys stay. Here's Charlie -- facing the fire, and there's George -- hiding in big Daddy's pocket. And what are you doin'? You're gonna reward George, and destroy Charlie.
Trask: Are you finished, Mr. Slade?
Slade: No, I'm just gettin' warmed up. Now I don't know who went to this place--William Howard Taft, William Jennings Bryan, William Tell -- whoever. Their spirit is dead; if they ever had one, it's gone. You're building a rat ship here. A vessel for sea going snitches. And if you think you're preparing these minnows, for manhood you better think again. Because I say you are killing the very spirit this institution proclaims it instills. What a sham! What kind of show you guys puttin' on here today? I mean, the only class in this act is sittin' next to me. And I say, this boy's soul is intact. It's non-negotiable. You know how I know? Because someone here--I'm not gonna say who--offered to buy it. Only Charlie here wasn't selling.
Trask: Sir, you are out of order!
Slade: Out of order, I'll show you out of order! You don't know what out of order is, Mr.Trask! I'd show you but I'm too old, I'm too tired, and I'm too fuckin' blind. If I were the man I was five years ago I'd take a flame-thrower to this place!! Out of order, who the hell do you think you're talking to? I've been around, you know? There was a time I could see. And I have seen, boys like these, younger than these, their arms torn out, their legs ripped off. But there is nothin' like the sight of an amputated spirit, there is no prosthetic for that. You think you're merely sending this splendid foot-soldier back home to Oregon with his tail between his legs, but I say that you are executing his soul! And why? Because he's not a Baird man. Baird men, you hurt this boy, you're going to be Baird Bums, the lot of ya. And Harry, Jimmy, Trent, wherever you are out there, fuck you too.
Trask: Stand down Mr. Slade!
Slade: I'm not finished! Now as I came in here, I heard those words... cradle of leadership. Well, when the bough breaks, the cradle will fall. And it has fallen here, it has fallen! Makers of men, creators of leaders, be careful what kind of leaders you're producing here. I don't know if Charlie's silence here today is right or wrong; I'm no judge or jury. But I can tell you this: he won't sell anybody out to buy his future! And that my friend is called integrity, that's called courage. Now that's the stuff leaders should be made of. Now I have come to the crossroads in my life. I always knew what the right path was. Without exception, I knew. But I never took it, you know why? It was too damn hard. Now here's Charlie; he's come to the crossroads. He has chosen a path, it's the right path. It's a path made of principle that leads to character. Let him continue on his journey. You hold this boy's future in your hands, committee! It's a valuable future. Believe me! Don't destroy. Protect it...embrace it. It's gonna make you proud some day... I promise you.

My Phuket Experience

2007-03-16T18:32:00.000+08:00

2/3/07 to 5/3/07

We conquered Phuket for 4 days and 3 nights and it was a BLAST!!!

Patong City Hotel. Patong beach. Tuk-tuk. Kesuma restaurant. Tom Yam. Phuket Simon Cabaret show. Karon beach. Island hopping. Snorkelling. Colourful fishes. Corals. Maya bay. Phi Phi island. Post tsunami. Khai island. Sunset. Zulina's birthday surprise. Starbucks. Manecure and pedicure. Foot massage. Phuket town. Shopping. Phuket Central Festival.

The day Fahmy was hospitalised

2007-02-20T00:36:00.000+08:00

I reported for work as usual and as soon as I stepped into the office, daddy informed me that Fahmy was hospitalised. Ironically, while he was trying to explain the details of the incident, the only pieces of info that came out of his mouth was how hot the doctor who treated Fahmy looked and the fact that Fahmy was on medication for high blood pressure. I gotta slap my head real hard for that! Thankfully there was Didi who, like a doctor, dissected the scenario scene by scene for my digestion. I listened hard to what happened and Na-ker was quick to jump at a conclusion. Fahmy should not have drank that can of soft drink!!!

Whatever the cause of his dizzy spell that caused Fahmy to collapse at work and turned white, the lesson was simply to take care of one's health. For me, I've been trying to eat vegetables. I'm taking small baby steps by starting to munch on cherry tomatoes. It is already a good progress by my standard. While having supper with Baq and Qat, I even showed them that I do eat my vegetables now by munching on my broccolis.

To Fahmy, take good care dude! We'll see you when you're back from your MC!

Miracle on a rainy day

2007-02-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

Imam Sadiq [a] said: "My most beloved brother is he who (makes me aware of) my faults".

Bihar-ul-Anwar, vol. 74, p. 282(05122006).

My dear lil brother,

I felt that our unplanned conversation which we had while waiting for the bus yesterday was perhaps one of the best conversations I've ever had with you. I never thought that we both could ever engage in a conversation that is so open but you were so cool when I asked you about the things that are happening in your life. And I'm glad you did. I do admit that often I may be hard on you because I fear you may end up like the other kids that I see and to me, that is one of my biggest fear in life.

Thank you for sharing a part of your life with me. It was enough to shed some light on the blurred vision that I had of you. I still have questions which I'm dying to ask you but never mind. I shall wait. Perhaps on another rainy day while we both sat by the bank waiting for the bus. A miracle may just happen. Yet again.

Blood Diamond

2007-02-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

I patiently waited for the first 10 days of Muharram to pass and deep in my heart, I hoped that the movie will still be screened once Muharram's over. Till today, the movie is still screened in cinemas but the shows are limited. And yesterday, I managed to purchase tickets to watch Blood Diamond with Erin. I was elated and very much on cloud nine!

This was one movie that got me surfing at 2 am to read more on conflict diamonds and child soldiers.

"They caught us near the camp and we have been with them for 2 months. Training was very hard. They show you how to fight. How to kill. During the war, we went as far as the Stockton bridge but had to retreat. I saw plenty people killed. Even young children. It was terrible."
-- George H, 16 years old.

"We were all taken from here, at least 50 boys on that day. The youngest boy fighter was probably fifteen, younger ones were taken but only used for labour. We were taken to Bomi and trained in how to fire, how to take positions during fighting. How to take cover and to dodge bullets. There were probably 100 boys who did the training. The others came from neighbouring camps. The training lasted about 2 weeks and right afterwards, I was on the front lines".
-- Isaac T, 16 years old. Spent 6 months fighting.

Many hands make light work

2007-01-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

I was about to log out and have my late dinner when suddenly a thought came to mind. I think I owe some gorgeous ladies out there a BIG THANK YOU. They've been my pillar of support the past 10 nights of Muharram and hey, they all deserve a pat on their backs. So here's to...

Miss Naddy the flirty. Darling, you've taught me how it was to be firm to people and you did it effortlessly. It was unfortunate that you didn't come today because we faced our big challenge just now and once again, our patience was tested. I love you Naddy. Don't be too flirty okay and please trim your nails. Principal Yati will check them the next time we meet. Hehehe!

Miss Lyana my girlfriend. Hey pretty gf with the killer dimples! You rocked lah just now! Some people were so impatient but you stood firm. You even dragged your younger sisters to help! Bagus! So do not be fooled coz beneath the gentle and docile looking girl, lies a girl with some Attitude!

Miss Hana Banana. She may look small but this girl carried a big pot of chicken which not only surprised me but also the Iranian cook! You go girl! She too stood firm today and made herself clear to those impatient bunch of people. They ended helping her scoop the food.

Miss Zak my executive assistant. Darling, you were only around for 5 nights. Or was it 6 nights? Anyway, wherever I am, you will be around and you were helping out tirelessly the first few nights. I knew you were tired after work and it's written all over your face but you still did it. May Allah bless you my dear.

Miss Ayun my little assistant. This girl rocks big time. She's dependable and will help me in any way she can. She's also a stress reliever with her stories about school and her netball matches and not forgetting her list-of-makan-places-to-go-to. I don't like it when people said that she's slow because this girl is still learning the ropes. Give her time and she'll prove you wrong. I love you Ayun! Update me on your matches yeah.

May Allah SWT bless each and everyone of you and thank you from the botton of my heart.
Now's time to have my dinner and Erin, looks like my hips will just grow bigger!

Cheers!

2007-01-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

I just had a chat with Erin and she mentioned about my un-updated blog. Well, I've been busy especially for the past 10 nights of Muharram. Every year during the month of Muharram, I will tell myself that I want to be a better person but as to whether I keep my word, it's another story. But one thing's for sure, I don't have much patience nowadays especially towards those who're just so full of themselves. So don't come to me acting like a diva when you're hardly anything in the industry. It's a shame my dear so please know that.

I'm also not too sure if I'm becoming sick of the industry but right now a temporary change of environment will be very nice.

Here's some pix of the girls and I during Christmas eve. I've planned to put it up long ago but due to my busy schedule, the plan has been put on hold for very long. So Erin, I've kept my promise to you. I've updated my blog.

These were the presents that we bought for each other

Posing with the presents was a MUST!

Here's a toast to celebrate the birth of Jesus

After a night of good food and company, it's time to lepak!

I forgot how much I loved my job

2007-01-25T18:46:00.000+08:00

Tell me your substance and I will glamourize it for you. That is the work of TV.

The Mataharies are back!

2006-12-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

You've seen them during Hari Raya and now they're BACK!!!

Yes they are back for Christmas!
And they're doing it their way with Brazillian cuisine for dinner prepared by Zuli and some other spread prepared by the girls. Tonight when the clock strikes 12, they'll be exchanging presents and sipping away sparkling grape juice plus tonnes of cam-whoring (this is exclusively for Zuli & Wawa, the 2 Camwhores). And not forgetting watching some DVD or VCD courtesy of Netty and let's see who'll be the first to sleep in front of the TV and who's the unfortunate one who will have to switch off the TV after everyone's asleep.

Watch as the girls discuss their future plans and join Fins as she embarks on a journey into motherhood. How about Wawa who just came back from Bangkok? She must have tonnes of stories and goodies to share! Irna on the other hand, is like the resident counsellor in the group so who's next in her to-be-counselled list? How about Netty? Is she still suffering from the sakit budak syndrome or is she finally ready to be in love again? Lastly, what can the group be without its chairman and her endless flings? Will she still hog on the phone the moment she wakes up and yack away with a certain someone?

Catch your favourite stars from The Mataharies this New Year's Eve at a countdown party near you... Irna Michelle Beckham, Netty Fiona Goh, Zulina Maya Rodrigues, Wawa Wee-wee Land, Fini Alphonso & Yati Affleck.

Be sure to catch Season 2 of The Mataharies every Sunday night at the new channel that will be reaching your homes soon!

Your absence makes my heart grow fonder

2006-12-20T16:36:00.000+08:00

Today during breakfast, she had to drop the bomb and told me something that I never imagined I would hear. On one hand, I was happy knowingthat she will be moving on to bigger things in life but honestly, I was sad and so was Ezra. The 3 of us shared something so special which was just beyond working relationship. To me, we are the real deal! The dude with his 2 bachelorette assistants. The vain bunch and the self-confessed elitists! Most of the time, we were in our own god damn world lah! And despite the setbacks (they come front, back, right, left, centre), work was always a breeze. No matter what.
Because I'm showered with so much nonsense and silly jokes from you and daddy.
Because I'm blessed with the knowledge that you and daddy shared with me.
But most importantly, because I'm surrounded by you and daddy.
I will miss you Natra.
I know I will.

Some photos to remember the good times by.

Lunch time behind White House

Nat's birthday surprise & Ronald's part of the birthday gift! Hehehe!

Team Bonding

Lastly, here's our Hari Raya photo shoot and everyone questioned my serious look so I had to come up with the lame reason of, "I'm trying to do the America's Next Top Model look lah!"

And somebody's now busy searching high and low for her missing tape! Tsk...tsk... Macam-macam lah Natra ni.

Just a random conversation...

2006-12-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

And it sounded something like these...

Farah: Yati, are you wearing a trench coat today?
Yati: (like duh?!) Yes Farah. I'm wearing a trench coat today but I usually wear it when I attend my religious classes.
Farah: You never wear baju kurung?! In that case, you must be the coolest girl in your religious class!
Yati: (with a BIG grin) I like you lah Farah!

Just let the music loop...

2006-12-11T19:15:00.000+08:00

As I crack my brain trying to put down together some team bonding activity and a hearty meal to go with it, I let my favourite movie soundtrack play on the work pc. It was the soundtrack for the French movie, "Love Me If You Dare". One hell of a lovely piece indeed.

To Steph Soh who complained saying that I've not done my "homework", here's to you babe. I didn't know that you have been following my blog but my pc is down and I just didn't get the chance to blog about anything at work as I'm swarmed with eerrm... work. Until now. At least can steal some time to blog something for you. Hehehe!

Steph Soh dear, your invitation for lunch at Shangri La sounds great but I don't think I can make it lah. First of all, Shangri La is so NOT my place. To begin with, I am a hawker centre girl and the only time I went to Shangri La was for the last Asia Television Forum and even back then when I went to "The Line", I only had some soup which was FOC. Courtesy of some good people. Secondly, your invitation's on a weekday and during lunch time, eh I only have an hour okay and your suggestion of applying for leave, eerrm just for Shangri La, not worth it lah.

So let me counter propose to you, Erin and I would like to invite you for dinner instead at Mangri La (mamak shop lah). What say you? It can be anytime when we're all free to meet up.

From yati-the-hawker-centre-lover

Marriage -- It's a personal choice

2006-11-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

Thanks Sammie for the email. It was really nice of you to share it with your lil sisters. The conversation that we had while breaking fast together was indeed an eye opener. Really appreciate it and I love you so much babe! I love Kak Maisyah too!

Marriage has never been intriguing to me. However, while in the mood of love, we tend to forget that with marriage, comes RESPONSIBILITY and that is the thing that freaks me out. I guess when you're in love, you also tend to "close one eye" on everything when actually the most important thing to do is to safeguard yourself and to open your eyes to everything. You only learn to "close one eye" after marriage coz seriously, there is only so much that you can do to change a person. For example, you cannot change me to not be a workaholic but you can certainly help me to learn to take time off from work, have a breather, rest and learn to enjoy life. And being a kitchen klutz, it also means that I do not do very well in the cooking department so that warrants a worry because life with me means eating out often or engaging a personal chef if you can afford it! Hehehe!

Whatever one's reason is for marrying early or late, I think most importantly is one's mental and spiritual readiness to embark on a new lease of life. Life together means doing almost everything together so if you think you're ready to share your life, hopes and dreams with someone special, then go ahead. However, if like me, you feel that there is so much personal growth that needs to be done, then taking your time and letting time decide is perhaps the best option for now.

2006-10-31T18:52:00.000+08:00

It was the first Raya eve that...
I spent working till past midnight.
I missed hearing the takbir raya.
Not helping my mum with any last minute house clean-up (I clean the house coz I do not cook).
And I'm not too sure if MARCELL made up for all that I missed this raya eve.

Manusia

2006-10-12T15:53:00.000+08:00

Aku antara manusia yang melupai akan kewujudannya
Ketika mewah bermaharajalela
Namun cepat mengingatinya
Pabila duka nestapa tiba
Rupa-rupanya manusia sering terlupa
Dan AKU antara mereka

Are you a compulsive liar?

2006-10-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

First you denied smoking and now you denied smoking and drinking Coke in public in the month of ramadan. So are you saying that I saw someone with uncanny resemblance to you, living in the same district and wearing the kind of clothes that you wear?

With all due respect, there is nothing more that I want except for an explanation. Why did you do that? Why didn't you fast? Why have you changed so much? Is life too stressful to handle? Peer pressure? Are you so sick that you cannot fast?

Instead you choose to deny everything and it saddens me to see someone so dear to me turn into someone so cold and rude.

Please let me understand because unless you do so, I cannot even begin to help.

I wanna hold you like the sky holds the sun

2006-09-28T13:36:00.000+08:00

Recorded in 'The Shed', A Band of Bees came up with the record, Sunshine Hit Me.

I wanna hold you like the sky holds the sun
I wanna hold you like your hand holds my thumb

Thanks Nat for the recommendation.

Overwhelmed with sorrow to see the man I respect leave...

2006-09-11T18:34:00.000+08:00

You created a difference in the community channel and you motivated the team to dream the impossible but now you've left but like you said this is not goodbye.

"It is a small country and we’ll meet again, somewhere, somehow – so this is a see you again and not goodbye..."

The day we all cried

2006-09-07T13:22:00.000+08:00

Date: 6/10/06
Time: 8 plus at night
Venue: Pasir Ris Chalet

Under the dim light, we shared a private moment as Netty read aloud the magazine that Wawa beautifully designed for her. She sobbed and so did all of us.

I just did not know why but it was an intimate moment that was just beyond words.

Thank you for the wonderful night girls. It was lovely and special and I shall remember it for as long as I live.

To Fins & Amir, thanks for the ride home.
To Wawa, thanks for the wonderful artwork.
To adik, thanks for telling us your deep buried secret. I understood your hesitation but don't make it a habit okay.
To chairman, thanks for overseeing Net's birthday surprise and ensuring that it went without any glitch.
To Netty, happy advanced birthday and don't be a naughty girl okay.

And here's some pictures for you to feast your eyes...

Netty's birthday gift

The birthday girl can't wait to eat her cake

Something for Netty

2006-09-07T13:10:00.000+08:00

Everything begins with a DREAM
So when all 6 of us got together, it was like a DREAM come true
Never had I imagined or thought that we could share something so special
So special that it encompass respect, loyalty, love and most importantly sisterhood

I hope our friendship will stand the test of time
The lure of envy and jealousy

Right now, I feel like a wreck but I know that you are always there for me
To soothe me with your words
And to tickle me with your humour

Happy birthday dear cousin
May God bestow all the good things in life to you
Continue dreaming and aiming for that pillar of success
And not forgetting that dream man of yours

From the dreamer,
yati

My Sweet Angel

2006-08-17T01:51:00.000+08:00

I am down with fever, Khay is down with migraine and Atiqah just came back from the dentist. Suddenly there are 3 sick babies at home and my mum religiously nursed each and everyone of us.

Suddenly this 26 years old feels like a 6 years old.

Thank you mummy! You are my angel!

Crippled by a disease

2006-08-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

How can you quit something you never try?
And you didn't even tell me why.
But no matter how I tried, I can't hate you anymore.
Sometimes when you held so tight, it just slipped off your hand.

I am down with fever AGAIN!
It was only last week that I was on MC for fever and diarrhoe and today my immune system shut down on me again. Work was not that stressful to begin with and surprise, surprise, when you least expected it, you started feeling feverish and had difficulty getting up for work. Lucky me for a supportive supervisor and colleague.

I'm not too sure if my angst is slowly eating me up from within. So lesson of the day, let others be the way they want to be coz flaring up will only make me sick.

In good company

2006-08-09T02:19:00.000+08:00

listen to the music

2006-08-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

These were shots of the girls and I while we were chilling out at Arab Street.
Netty was recommending a few new songs for us to listen so you can check each and everyone of us out as we "tangkap lentok" & "tangkap mood". But the funny thing was that amongst all of us, I was the only one who needed to listen to the song twice before I can really get the mood and feel of the song. When Irna said the song was sad and as she went on and on about how sad the song was, I almost fell from my chair! One trial and I was lost and I needed a second trial before I really got the meaning?! Girls, please do not give up on me yet. And Net, I still want you to recommend me whatever new songs you have.